He Is My All

This is the question that I dread the most: "Do you have a boyfriend yet?" I hate that question. I detest that question. I absolutely, positively hate being asked that question. That is a question that people have been asking me for years, ever since I was 13 years old (and yes, a few of those questions were asked when I was so young, due to the fact that people took me for being older than what I actually was. . .story of my life, haha). Of course, the answer to that question is always a firm, "No." And with me, just a simple reply of "no" when being asked that question is a very simple answer to walk away with in regards to this particular subject (I do tend to lecture). I've always found it interesting how people these days think that every teen that is in their "older teen years" is in some sort of relationship with someone. For the majority, that is a very, very correct way of thinking, as quite a few teens are in relationships with the opposite gender once they hit the age 16, or even younger. So, that being said, I have been able to see how the asking of that previously stated question is perfectly normal. For the majority of people it is quite normal to ask that question, quite normal indeed. However, it is not in regards to me.

I know that many people that meet me (girls and guys alike) think I'm a bit strange or weird. I'm not sure that I have met someone, or even know someone in person that can put me into the "normal category." It's not normal seeing a young woman walking around the mall, store, etc. in a skirt, nor is it normal to watch a young woman reply with a smile to someone that is being terribly grouchy with her (though, I will not deny that there are many times when I must force that smile to be there in those situations). Not being normal is the story of my life, and I love it! My heart rejoices every time I'm told to my face that I'm "strange" or "weird." It rejoices because I know that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing for His glory! To this world, I should be considered strange! Those comments do not put me down, rather they encourage me in Him!

So, how does this relate to the question, "Do you have a boyfriend yet?" Here's how: I am considered strange for my view on that, too. As I previously stated, asking that question is perfectly normal in regards to most people, but is not in regards to myself. Why? Because what people don't realize is that I do not have one desire whatsoever to have a boyfriend, or be in any sort of a relationship anytime soon. Shocked? Many are when hearing that reply. While I do have a desire to be married in the future, I do not believe that being in a relationship in pursuit of marriage will happen anytime soon, and at this point, I don't want it to. I am sure that many of you are asking yourselves why that is. Here is my answer: I am in love with Jesus Christ. I am in love with God's perfect will for my life, and what He is calling me do to with this life of mine that is His.

Will marriage be a part of that? I do not know. Do I want marriage to be a part of that? At some point, yes, I would like that. But here's the thing: finding the perfect man is not a priority of mine, seeking and dreaming about marriage has never been a priority of mine, and it never will be, unless God leads me otherwise. God is leading me to pursue so many wonderful things in life for His glory; things that I am not sure marriage is supposed to be a part of (and in all honesty, I've always felt that marriage wouldn't be a part of those things, but will not rule out the possibility of getting married at some point in my life, as God could always lead me in that direction). Loving Him, serving Him, and bringing Him the glory in all that I do and say; that is my priority. Nothing else. I am perfectly content in life with Jesus as my all, and being His hands and feet; doing all for His glory. Don't get me wrong, though; I know that those things can be accomplished while in a relationship, and it is so awesome if God is calling you that way, but that is not the way, presently, that He is calling me. Having a "boyfriend", getting married. . .those are all things so far from my mind compared with loving my God, serving Him fully, and bringing Him the glory in all. I am sure that some day God may bring those things closer to my mind and heart, and that will be amazing, and I will praise His name for that. Could He lead me in that direction sooner than I think? He most definitely could and will if that is His will. Until then, I am His and His alone. My affection and love is for Him and Him alone. He is my all.

On a side note: when people wonder why I call young men my brothers; that's why. All that I stated above is 'why'. They are my brothers, and that's how I view them; that's all young men in my life will ever be until God reveals to me otherwise. That is all I desire for the young men in my life to be. And it is such an amazing blessing to me! Now, I do feel that this blog post is a bit different from my previous blog posts, but I felt very strongly led to write this, and I really do pray that it might bless some of you, if that is His will! Soli Deo Gloria!